I write of my journey back to light and life after the darkest days I ever knew through letters to my children. Leia watches over her brother Ryder from Heaven. The letters are not magic wands that can bring her back or how I turned tragedy into triumph with the birth of our rainbow baby. It is, however, the truth of what good can happen when you decide that you love someone so much, you just can't say goodbye.

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Dear Ryder,
It’s labor day today which means unofficial last day of summer. Technically Fall isn’t until the 23rd but we all know it’s over the minute kids return to school.
It makes me very very sad. I really dislike the cold weather. Of course right now it is storming so bad out I bet the lights go out. I won’t miss that part of summer. But everything else I will miss. The daily trips to the park, the lets stay outside all day days, the swimming outside, the splash pad visits. 
Winter isn’t as fun and since neither daddy or I enjoy it, we make it worse.  At least we have gymnastics starting up on Saturday for you. I hope you like it. It is something to keep you busy that’s for sure.
Today we went to a picnic in the park where you went in a bouncy castle. You had so much fun. there was a little boy in there taking care of you, which was uber cute. Also made me sad. Sad that your big sister Leia isn’t here physically taking care of you.
Daily you ask “where’s baby?” which pains me.  I wanted so bad to give you a living sibling.  There is a lot that can happen in the future, so we aren’t giving up hope. However right now seeing you around other kids, makes me wish for a miracle.
Leia watches over us, and especially you daily.  But it’s not the same.  I want/need her here with us.  She would be the best big sister and make sure nothing happens to you.  Much like this kid did today.
On Sunday we are going to the butterfly release and walk to remember. This is our 3rd year going. Hard to believe.  Hard to believe your sister should be 3 years old. 
I’m not sure if she would be going to school or not, but she would be ready that’s for sure. 
We went to auntie Sarah’s today for supper and to get our table we lent them.  You and Lillian played and sat on a chair to talk things over. It was super cute.
I’m getting all teary eyed at the moment. Must go deal with my emotions.
Love you

Mommy

Dear Ryder,

It’s labor day today which means unofficial last day of summer. Technically Fall isn’t until the 23rd but we all know it’s over the minute kids return to school.

It makes me very very sad. I really dislike the cold weather. Of course right now it is storming so bad out I bet the lights go out. I won’t miss that part of summer. But everything else I will miss. The daily trips to the park, the lets stay outside all day days, the swimming outside, the splash pad visits. 

Winter isn’t as fun and since neither daddy or I enjoy it, we make it worse.  At least we have gymnastics starting up on Saturday for you. I hope you like it. It is something to keep you busy that’s for sure.

Today we went to a picnic in the park where you went in a bouncy castle. You had so much fun. there was a little boy in there taking care of you, which was uber cute. Also made me sad. Sad that your big sister Leia isn’t here physically taking care of you.

Daily you ask “where’s baby?” which pains me.  I wanted so bad to give you a living sibling.  There is a lot that can happen in the future, so we aren’t giving up hope. However right now seeing you around other kids, makes me wish for a miracle.

Leia watches over us, and especially you daily.  But it’s not the same.  I want/need her here with us.  She would be the best big sister and make sure nothing happens to you.  Much like this kid did today.

On Sunday we are going to the butterfly release and walk to remember. This is our 3rd year going. Hard to believe.  Hard to believe your sister should be 3 years old. 

I’m not sure if she would be going to school or not, but she would be ready that’s for sure. 

We went to auntie Sarah’s today for supper and to get our table we lent them.  You and Lillian played and sat on a chair to talk things over. It was super cute.

I’m getting all teary eyed at the moment. Must go deal with my emotions.

Love you

Mommy

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Reminder that my e-book is on sale till end of October. Thank you for those who have purchased it already and sent me feedback :)

http://www.lulu.com/shop/angela-williams/letters-to-leia/ebook/product-20940214.html

The fault, dear Brutus, is not in the stars, but in ourselves.

(Source: tfioh, via hopefor-heaven)

I just finished watching The Fault in Our Stars , and like many I bawled. Cried and ugly ugly cry.  I am so glad that it was true to the book (for the most part).
I will watch it over and over and cry every time.  It is one of those movies that makes you wish you had someone like Gus in your life.

I just finished watching The Fault in Our Stars , and like many I bawled. Cried and ugly ugly cry.  I am so glad that it was true to the book (for the most part).

I will watch it over and over and cry every time.  It is one of those movies that makes you wish you had someone like Gus in your life.

(Source: thefaultinourstars-scrapbook)

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The Wicked Witch of the West doing the Ice Bucket Challenge.

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